I’m Kazakh and this happened in Kazakhstan.

  • ConstipatedWatson@lemmy.world
    15·
    6 days ago

    I can’t even begin to understand how you must have felt and feel now.

    I’ve got lots of questions

    (1) How did you free yourself/get freed?

    (2) Why did he want you?

    (3) How did you manage to stay strong?

    I have even more questions, but these are the first three that popped into my mind

      • Cyrus Draegur@lemm.eeEnglish
        9·
        6 days ago

        most people are familiar with “fight or flight” Acute Stress Responses, but when one neither fighting nor fleeing are viable options, there are other modalities that kick in for the sake of one’s survival.

        Namely, Freeze and Fawn: get small, be non-threatening, attempt to appease the assailant.

        You did what you had to in order to get through that, and while nonetheless horrific and brutal, the fact that you came out of this alive is a testament to your resiliency. I wish you could get justice… hell I wish you could get vengeance. But I’m just glad you’re still here at all.

  • SnokenKeekaGuard@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    11·
    6 days ago

    Age 13-20? How much has this affected your growth and upbringing?

    Do you find it affected your morality and beliefs.

    OK in my mind this is a bunker where youre isolated. What was the social dynamic like?

    • corrie@lemmy.worldOP
      13·
      6 days ago

      I did once in the beginning. Tried to run through the basement door when he left it open and wasn’t paying attention. Obviously didn’t make it. He caned my soles & belted my back and bottom as punishment. I also found out that he left the door open on purpose cause he knew I’s try to run eventually, and wanted to get this lesson with over as soon as possible and needed a reason. So he set me up on purpose. Said he’d hammer my knees if I ever did that again. To say the least I never tried again.

  • thebestaquaman@lemmy.world
    5·
    5 days ago

    I can’t even begin to imagine what this must have been like… I’m wondering about several things:

    1. What kind of reaction was there to your dissapearance? Have you ever looked up any archives to find out what happened in the days after you dissapeared?

    2. What is your life like now?

  • Akasazh@feddit.nl
    72·
    6 days ago

    What was the reunification with your family like?

    Hoe haar it affected your development? (Physiologically, sexually, socially)

    • corrie@lemmy.worldOP
      17·
      6 days ago

      My family completely thought I was dead. They made a promise to themselves that if they didn’t find me in 10 years, they’d hold a religious ceremony to bury me in absentia and officially consider me dead so that the family could move on. It was a huge shock and very emotional. Made me quite socially awkward, a yes-man and sexually repressed - this man didn’t allow me to masturbate or anything sexual like that at all and there were cameras all over so I was on constant watch; he wanted to keep me “pure and innocent”. Thinking about it now I’m probably more childish than people my own age due to it.

      • Akasazh@feddit.nl
        7·
        6 days ago

        Wow that’s wild. I hope you get support from your family and professional help when you need it.

        But also, there’s lots to discover. I wish you all the best.