i don’t want to fgeel anything. i’m in so much physical discomfort right now becaouse i’m feeling so anxious and nervous abouto the fact that i should be studing but all this feelings are just making it impossible. i want to be so high right now just so i could stop feeling anything. i’m scratching the back of my head so much that i’m hurting myself and i’d want to punch myself in the face or bite my hands I hate that i can’t stop this feeling. i only i could start studing than i’d be okay but no, because it’s just a studid fucking circle that i am unable to break and it makes everything awful