I dunno why the mod removed my comment, other than being a pearl-clutching morbidly obese basement troglodyte prude.

All the power to you, girl. Live your life, and enjoy all you can that’s freely offered to you. And i know you are grateful for it because you sound like a well-rounded good person, so no need to justify your life to anyone here. I envy you and your beautiful freedom. I know what I’m about to say is a cliché Walmart shelf item, but you indeed are the epitome of live, laugh and love.