Hi Mari
Congratulations on graduating soon! I’m also sorry for your loss I know loosing my grand father was tough and I can only imagine the wedge his will has created between you and your family.
We’re not well equipped to make decisions of that magnitude at 18 and many of us don’t develop the skills to make them later in life 😅
How you really doing?
DMs are always open if you have any questions you’d rather bounce of a stranger :)
Thank you for the thoughtful response. It clearly draws the path of compulsive behaviours and its certainly true what is perceived as good or bad is a moving target based on societal norms and we’re more often faced with the illusion of agency rather than true power over our actions.
If you’re interested in challenging your view I’d invite you to look into psychology revolving around recovering addicts. There is some very interesting information there. More often than not it the self reinforcing pathways that que cravings never go away but buy making changes to some of the areas you mentioned that compel the neurons to fire ie their “environment” they’re able to manipulate their physical behaviour to ones that better align with their sense of self.
Agreed the bag of worms we’re wading into is a challenging one but we must acknowledge that individuals can have competing motivations that trace down to the biological functions that reinforce them. Which ones win out can be manipulated by internal and external influences.
Thank you for indulging me it’s fun to RP as someone who could participate in philosophical discussion
The LLM out here tryna parse morality lol love your user name.
Wack of me to comment here but I’d like to hear more about your logic for the perpetual passing of accountability! It’s true enough that our lived experience is basically dependency hell. I guess for chiming in I owe you my “source of good” haha it changes the further you zoom out but it starts at collective harm reduction and burrows all the way down to showing up for the people you care about.
Even when they lack the perspective to see themselves as the perpetrator. We roll that boulder up the hill lol
Thank you for these posts! Regrettably my laymen self got lost in the weeds trying to recreate the set up through a different distribution hahah but I’ve learned lots along the way :)
Op take a look at your other habits big and small with special attention offered to contemplating how compulsive they are / what triggers a craving etc.
If you want a good read related to the area dopamine nation has a mix of thoughtful interpretation and some valuable anecdotal experience for reference!