Claudia Black
There’s a (now kind of old) compliment, “I could listen to her read the phone book” that applies.

100proof Vodka.

I’ve also been listening to a bunch of songs I haven’t listened to in a while, the past few weeks.

Got around 60+ short playlists on YouTube I used to listen to when gaming. Don’t game as much these days, but been enjoying having a few shots and watching something, then listening to music while laying down as the night progresses.

One unexpected nice lil side effect, is that I’ve started waking up with a song stuck in my head that’s from the previous evening’s listening; a song I actually like instead of the mall-shite that I frequently wake up to. I often wake up with a song stuck in my head, but it’s more often then not, not one I want stuck in there. (Used to work retail and used to work in retail stores doing contract inventory. Listened to a lot of mall music in my life.)

Also, I’m currently living in a hostel and for some reason they continually play crap music down in the lobby/bar/communal area. I’ve heard enough Spice Girls to last me a couple lifetimes, tyvm. So the above has helped counter that musical offensive on my sense of taste and sanity.

The problem is the taste makes me crave the texture.

I’m a bit abnormal in that I crave texture more than taste though. I love eating steak near raw (blue) with my bare hands so I can do that “nature channel wolf thing” where they rip their prey with a side-to-side wry head movement. It’s primal and glorious.

And if I get that flavour without the texture I am left, wanting.

Gollum had it right in the end. Give it to me raw and wriggling. (But preferably free of parasites…)

Wagyu, purely for the texture in this case.

I don’t want “steak-butter”, I want to rip through a raw piece of meat.

Not being able to kill children (while being able to kill virtually anyone else at any time) has been a Bethesda thing that’s made its way into other games either as a real mechanic or as a bit of a joke.

My city has gone from one of the worst cycling-friendly places to one of the best in the country in the past two years. Lots of construction.

Neat hearing a positive story in that regard as I, 99% of the time, hear the opposite as people transition to a different road norm. (Just a product of where I am.) And the saying of my city is, “newly wed or nearly dead” and the “nearly dead” portion definitely have troubles adapting to the new ideal that yes, you have to let the guy in a cycle go first despite being in a big SUV hogging the road.

Canada (I’m Canadian) had quite the turn last election. We were almost surely going into a conservative religious-dominant government until our southern friends showed us the error of that way.

I generally don’t vote to be honest. But now? Well. To be entirely frank…

Fuck me.

As someone who is very poor and one step away from being on the streets (which I won’t do so one step away from… y’know) I was expecting a conservative government to gut everything I rely on.

Instead I’ve been at a work resource center and they’ve been telling me now is a “hot time” to do things like government funded retraining. Specifically due to the government that’s in power now.

So yeah. Maybe I should get in a line and vote. Turns out it makes a difference.

I can tell when people only read the title. 😉

I’ve been accused of tapping my foot by the downstairs neighbours in my early 20’s. Had no clue I was doing it. But apparently, I do…

All of them. I don’t like to sing. I also like a fair bit of music that doesn’t have many (or any) lyrics.

I post on Lemmy lol.

If you’re a bit of a nerd I suggest looking up local tabletop RPG groups and giving it a shot. It’s one of the easier ways to be social as an introvert. It has a sort of regimented system of socializing that everyone understands, with an end time and an obvious goal. Once I’m in a better spot myself (life has been rough the past bit but it’s looking up) I might do this myself.

But for now drinking and watching shows and shitposting on Lemmy still works for me lol. Used to post on Reddit, 100k+ karma there, Not banned, but I am sick of reddit’s BS, so now I’m here instead, sorry y’all.

PS: I’m staying at a monthly rate in a hostel, and I go to a couple local food banks. There’s a “free food” area in the communal kitchen that I stock up once or twice a week because where I live the food banks are extraordinarily generous.

People have started to notice and been thanking me, and as a result they’ve been striking up conversations and getting to know me. (I am very much an introvert.) So I’ve been socializing a lot more than I normally do as a result.

Too esoteric to recommend, but figured I’d add this random ass story as socializing can happen in the strangest of ways at times.

Good on ya, I’ve been in a shitty situation but I’m aiming for moderation rather than abstinence but neither is easy and both are, … roads to traverse. (My previous housing situation was full of crackheads which is not where I’m at.)

Whatever it takes. I’ve been keeping myself structured with early morning appointments and one family member who’s helping me despite most of my family probably wishing I was just dead. I’m lucky in that regard, I have someone who gives a shit and monetarily made that clear. (Beyond prayer and hopes, which are fuckin’ useless.) If I didn’t have just that single one thread, I dunno where I’d be.

I still have that map book on my shelf and whenever I see it, I think of that trip and all those people we met.

Awesome. Truly.

I use Ublock Origin with Firefox and it works well on my win10 laptop. I use Brave on my Ipad and it works “alright-ish” but well enough. There are a lot of options to remove the ads. Highly recommend checking some out.

Free (government funded) AI workshop for resumes, coverletters, and job hunting.

Most of it was useless but some of it was extremely informative.

I forget the exact statistic (from StatsCanada per my instructor) but a high percent (50-75) of resumes get auto-rejected by something called ATS. Basically an automated system for HR. And sometimes it can be something as simple as the system noticing you’re using AI…

Let that sink in for a sec there. AI rejecting you for using… AI. OOF.

Bring up newer Star Trek and Star Wars around nerds and watch the world burn. 😈

I’ve been scheduling things early when I could’ve scheduled them in the afternoon just to keep me from sleeping all morning and help keep me/create somewhat of a routine.

Day drinking. :)

My grandmother would only buy homeless people food if they accepted a bible with it.

In my 20s I had something of the opposite and had a number of women interested in me who were themselves in relationships, while I was not. Enough of a ratio compared to women who were single who were interested in me (which was not a high number) that I started to wonder why.

I’m not particularly outgoing either. Probably just statistics/chance, but I always wondered if there was something to it I was unconsciously contributing to.