You might tell yourself in retrospect that you consciously made that decision to deepen it and twist it, but with the adrenaline, panic, fear? You instinctually reacted to survive, and the fact you were able to withdraw from the situation before inflicting greater harm is a testament to the fact it wasn’t cruel.
There are some great mobile games out there. A few of my favorites include Dawncaster and Slice & Dice. Personally when I’m looking for a new game I use https://www.darkpattern.games/ to check if they are exploitive.