Could it be depression?

Anyways, would you be able to recall at the end of the day something nice that happened to you, even if small? Gratefulness is my personal path to inner peace doesn’t matter if big or small. And even if you decide to not take this path, you can use the memory of that good moment to 1 make it happen more often, or 2 invest your time/thoughts to make it even better next time it happens or 3 follow up and build on top of it.

Books, podcasts, niche youtubers, video games. Jusy keep trying different subjects until you find something that interests you. Learning is usually a draw for a lot of people. You could also try volunteering in some way. Maybe that will be more fulfilling.

If we end capitalism then human life has intrinsic value again instead of a sticker price

I’m like an atheist monk.

you might be having SzPD. I’m not saying that but you might think about it.

I don’t want to travel because it costs money.

I don’t spend much money on clothing or media and save most of my paycheck.

then why don’t you use some of those to travel? There are ways to travel less expensively. I had a phase like this when I was a college kid and I saved up the small scholarship (much less than an actual job) and travelled, which did something that depression meds couldn’t do then. ymmv though.

Is there anything that you would like to do, any bucket list items etc?

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Try this book.

“Discover What You Are Best At” by Linda Gail. I always had jobs, and never particularly liked working. I did the tests in the book and got pointed at a job I actually enjoyed doing.

Even on rainy Mondays I didn’t hate having to leave the house.

Having a job you like solves a lot of your problems.

is there any way to stop this

There’s pretty much every way. Work, eat, shower, sleep is such a minimal place to start that if emptiness is your issue, I feel like you could go in any direction you want and do better.

Maybe no one ever told you this so I’ll try. There is no objective meaning to life or purpose for it. The meaning is up to you to make. I don’t think any path whatsoever (therapy, volunteering, art, hobbies, dating, travel, whatever) will work unless you take responsibility for the problem. If you are hoping for others to provide the genius answer, or looking for some global perfect answer or “meaning of life” then you aren’t taking on the responsibility yourself.

You have to do that or nothing else can work. This thread might be a start. You did ask. Now you need to put the time into the many fine suggestions here.

Don’t take them in turns and try them “to see if they work.” That’s still the main problem of assuming the answer is outside of you somewhere. Instead, take them in turns and put everything you’ve got into them. If you can do this, any of them will work.

Get a dog and pamper it.

Most people bore me.

I don’t want to say that there aren’t boring people, but c’mon… You’re no troubador yourself. People don’t exist to keep you from being bored.

Living for the sake of not dying is not a living itself. People find meaning in lots of things: art, religion, bullshitting, pushing the bounds of knowledge, making loved ones laugh.

The meaning we make is our own and we share that living journey with a few others. It can be amazing and difficult and complicated. It’s rare to have someone truly get you, but we put ourselves out there because get got is so good.

Allow yourself enjoyment. Do things.

Enforce ‘this was fun’.

Sounds stupid and piling responsibility on you. I’m sorry about that. But maybe this can help you. I’ve been there.

Honestly, if you’re in the US especially, mutual aid might at least be interesting. You can try Food Not Bombs or MADR or a regional/local org.

There’s pscilocybin or MDMA for a break from the shitshow or even a guiding light.

Therapy is kind of difficult since it’s expensive and you need to sift through multiple therapists to find one that clicks with you. It’s the most likely thing to benefit you as long as you find the right one. Maybe antidepressants will help?

At the end of the day you have to choose something to do for meaning. Change is going to take months or years. Silver bullets are the rare exception.

How’s your anxiety level? Depression and anxiety are linked pretty closely and with you mentioning the expense of things that sticks out to me you might have other issues.

It sounds like a mental health evaluation would benefit you, honestly. I would not want to be alive today if not for medication.

I still don’t feel like doing anything or being with anyone but I don’t feel worthless.

I hope you can find something that helps

Have you tried getting a pet?

Having another life to care for can give your life meaning.

Okay. Hear me out.

Minecraft and cough syrup.