Jesus Christ stressed. In addition to gestures broadly at the world, there’s tornado spawning storms sweeping through overnight.

I’m trying to get my brain to shut off enough to sleep and it’s not working.

Good, all thigs considered.

Had a right rotten week waiting for an oil delivery at my studio, so I wasn’t able to get much accomplished since last Monday. Too cold to work. Today I did manage to get about half my supplies and set pieces put up for the season (I am an art director for several small retail outlets and a restaurant - I change out the interior decor on a seasonal schedule.) so that was nice. Been so chilly in the studio I wasn’t bothering to go in and it had been killing me. Glad I can get back on schedule.

Yeah, today was nice.

worried for the future and dying to see consequences for the criminals in my government.

oh and the ecosystem is on fire but there’s an asshole on my block who loves to rev his shitbox engine all day.

I’m good trained and saw my friend which was nice now watching twitch and scrolling

Honestly, not bad. The world is a crazy nightmare and terrible. but I have a roof over my head, a kid doing well in school, a job that values me , and my antidepressants are working. Also my birthday is in a couple weeks

Overall I’m good. Slightly bummed. My wife and I had plans with another couple we just met and they backed out.

To make a long, TMI story short we don’t ever socialize. So a bummer to have been looking forward to that and it not pan out. But eh… I don’t know them other then they drink whisky and smoke cigars, and sometimes my perspective on life clashes a bit with that crowd, so really it could be a bullet dodged.

Headed out to San Diego for a couple days later this month for a work pow wow. Next month my wife and I are going to the Dominican where we will eat, drink and do nothing, so that will be nice.

Oh and I’m building a bar in the dining room. Just bought the cabinets and countertop today so my next couple of weekends will be busy with that.

Overall pretty good. Like Joe Walsh once sang: I can’t complain but sometimes I still do; life’s been good to me so far.

Good, wonderful night…

The following is probably not for the peaceful night, at least in my case, so please skip it if the night must stay in peace.

It’s 0343 here, and I am not sure what to believe anymore… I’ll share some conversation excerpts of my messages from another conversation…

Since I am currently still in Austria for the job case, I got also interested in the following…
While reading the article (about social media surveillance), a few weeks ago, I heard a German-lyric song playing in the website’s built-in web player.
One of the detail that also interested me is that the genre as still magnificent Dark themed Rap or HipHop I don’t usually listen to, and if I am not mistaken, some name it Street Noir, is not quite frequent to hear… in Austria nor Germany, unless it’s quite underground fields of events.
I tried searching for it, but prior downloading and checking out the media file itself, I tried multiple services in addition to the common as Shazam, but nothing was found…

// vmfunc.re/music/peter-pan.mp3

Yet, in the file itself we may see meta tags, including the artist “Kurt M.T.”, and here we find the actual artist in their single published venue, 12 days ago, and… apparently…

I… I… adored… the sound of it… the pace, and even… even… danced… for it… I did… but… b… oh… no…
I do still feel betrayed… I feel… r… I am sorry…
Hinc illae… lacrimae…
… … …

23:34 and I’m bored and have no one to talk to…

And I’m procrastinating on my writing project AGAIN

But eh… I’ll work on it tomorrow lol

Anxious about the future…

Politically… (country could fall apart)

Depression-wise…

Career-wise…

Family-wise… worried that my relationship with parents would shatter… and also worried about what my own future plans for family is… as in a family that I start, not the family of origin. Idk if I’d ever find someone… especially with my depression right now I’m probably not gonna be ready for a long time… I might eventually miss my window…

I was felling pretty shit but now that I can feel the warm spring air in the wind I feel a lot better.

What are you talking about? It’s 9:42…

Had a real good week. I’m grateful