I’ve made the commitment this week. Before I can think my way out of it, I’ve booked and paid for a room up in Echuca/Moama. This means I get to stop in at my favourite bakery in Kyneton on the way for lunch and continue listening to the audiobook I’m getting into (11/22/63). Should be a lovely weekend.
Oooh and I get to try out my new weekend adventure travel cooler bag! I’ve got 4 bottles of water and 5 cans of bourbon is this bad boy.
I’m feeling so ugh. The new kid moving in and the mentor moving out is all weighing on my mind. So many conflicting feelings. Anger + sadness + disappointment + resentment + guilt + pity + somehow partial apathy +feeling bad for all of the above + whatever the negative version of nostalgia is is a potent combo. I typed out my feelings before ultimately deleting because it was too long, but it didn’t help. Also went for a walk and tried to distract myself with YouTube and other things but that didn’t work either
I keep a hand written journal. You never know, it might be just the thing. It keeps me balanced.
Maybe. I’m not really into handwriting though
Neither. But it works differently to typing I reckon. Feels different.
Make room for it all. I like to imagine all these “ghosts” competing for space inside me. If you fight to keep ‘em out you lose anyway, may as well let the emotions have their day.
may as well let the emotions have their day.
Hopefully that’s all they want. But I like that metaphor
They can’t hurt you. It might feel like it, but it won’t actually leave a scar. Least that’s been my experience.
That sucks so much that they didn’t wait for the new mentor to be there. Can you be super busy and away from the house to limit the amount of time alone with him until there’s someone there to mediate if needed? Obviously with your stuff locked away in your room.
I’ll be going away for 6 days or so the day after he moves in and have enough on my Myki that I can escape if needed. I also took out a little bit of money in case I need to bail for a whole day
Facing that tough decision of in equally invested in another drink, but also just going to bloody bed.
I’ve tentatively booked Miss Meow in for the vet on Monday. I’m not sure if I can get a lift and am a bit stressed because of the automatic prompt shit with the taxi booking system… I need to speak to a human operator to make double sure they know a cat will be riding as that’s caused issues in the past, but the last time I did that it kicked me in circles with the bot 🙄 Normal Uber has consistently refused to take pets.
I’ve downloaded the taxi app and seen that you can add notes for the driver so if I can’t sort a lift I can do that. And the last resort is Pet Uber. (Being as surge pricing can unexpectedly get exorbitant.) If I’m truly fucked we can submit to the ordeal of the bus.
Fuck I wish I had an electric quadbike or something just for things like this.
So conclusion to yesterday’s mystery. At least shit, I HOPE it is! And again, I’ll throw this behind a nsfw
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So I couldn’t figure out a polite way to say “hey, I’m sure my brains fucked with anxiety, but you weren’t trying to get me to finish inside the other night, right?” I feel like German might have the words for that, but English entirely fails. So I came up with a better idea: propose we go again and offer to wear one and see if there are any objections. Genius right? There were no objections. Also no ones yelled in like 48 hours so we might be onto something here.
Alright. I think I’ve shared enough about my bedroom to last us all a life time. But the reason I stayed up was to share this: babymetal x electric call boy - ratatata I only knew one electric callboy song (pump it) and I’ve only vaguely heard of babymetal. And I’m really not into metal, but this song is freaking incredible!!! Do yourself a favour and give it a go even if it doesn’t sound like your thing.
You’re over thinking.
Good night and sleep well. 😘
Banger. This is my fav: babymetal x bring me the horizon - kingslayer - https://youtu.be/pAM8MQt6I6I?si=gBQoHRn8aTKYG7cP
There’s something about the juxtaposition of the screamo and the kawaii cutesy-ness of babymetal that hits hardYep, nailed it! It’s like sweet and sour sauce: compliments each other perfectly.
We’ve got tickets for Stephen K Amos tonight, he’s at the Kingston Arts Centre in Moorabbin. Should be good. Food and drinks somewhere before, maybe the new American BBQ and burger joint Third Wave Cafe if we can get in.
Pretty sure he rooted a mate of a mates teen brother once. Super creepy dude.
The Third Wave in Albert Park is a great feed. They did get in on the NFT trend a couple of years ago though, if that colours your perception of them at all
Very nice and amazing. I love Stephen K Amos. I find him so funny.
I hope you have an amazing time tonight.
Ventured out to Footscray for some vape supplies. It’s so nice here.
Can’t wait to move once I have a new contract. Makes where I live seem like the middle of fucking nowhere.
Out west? Miss Seagoon spent about 4 months there, she couldn’t wait to get back to Carlton.
I don’t blame her. It’s fucking dead out here. Peaceful, nice to have a music studio in my house. But it’s no longer worth it. I need to be around people.
We talked a lot about it. The young Seagoons loved all the birds, the trees, the proximity to national parks, the night sky. She said no homeless in the streets but lots of suburban poverty and misery.
You need to visit CBM!
Second batch of crumpets have been made . I think the recipe needs adjusting. Edible, even delicious but a bit heavy.
I’ve never made crumpets before but I’ve had atayef pancakes (middle eastern pancakes) lots of times and they always remind me of a lighter crumpet so maybe have a look at those recipes to get some ideas on how to adjust yours.
I need to add more milk and maybe a little baking powder. The batter needs to be a bit thinner.
Don’t suppose you’d indulge us with a photo of said crumpets?
here’s a pic of a previous batch
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I’m not why but I can’t see the image :(
Sleepy cat makes me sleepy too. Damnit fluffy butt.
How dare I have the lamp on the lowest setting so I can read…
Goodnight everyone and have a great day ❤️
Happy birthday DT. Love youse…
because I am complaining about spending money and that's kinda privileged....
I am usually frugal but I when I have to buy things I just put my head down and do it all at once…so this week I have purchased new prescription sunnies, new backpack (good bellroy one that will last forever), bulk foods (cleaning things and flours etc) and then a couple of pretty and good work tops from my fav little shop. And a nice combo card holder and pencil case so I can keep my things together and not forget them (geeky but I ADORE IT).
Feeling a nice dopamine rush and slight panic (I had money aside but still). I am having a beer at hopheads and might buy dinner tonight to cap off a day of running around shopping. I am not going away for long weekend so this so this is kinda my holiday…yeah?
I am very good with money and on top of bills and fortunate in my current job and but I still struggle with buy good stuff that will last forever (or worse buying something new because the forever thing I own actually doesn’t do the job anymore) versus make do with nothing. Oh to have a brain that could be happy.
I can send you my Amazon wish list, let’s keep the momentum going! 🙏
Haha. When I win that Powerball LET’S GO
How much did you pay for prescription sunnies? I need a replacement asa0
They were 500 bucks because I need multifocals. Could have got the for 450 but I figured 50 buck to make them polarised was worth it. Specsavers has a deal on some of those extras at the moment.
Has anyone been with Bank of Melb for a fixed term before? I want to open one, and out of the banks that offer fixed terms to under 18s, BoM seem to have the highest interest rates. But I’ve never opened a fixed term account before, so opinions appreciated
I’d sooner chop my balls off than go with BoM for ANY product ever again. Ask me how they fucked up so bad we almost missed settlement then sent comms speaking about us as customer as if we pure fucking garbage.
I’ve got a regular savings acc with Aus Unity for 5.1%. BoM looked to be 4.8% but I didn’t check their youth options.
Thanks. Aus Unity has a min deposit that’s a little bit high for me at the moment. BoM is 4.8%, but 4.9 if you join and manage online. Honestly I’m not really in it for the interest as I won’t deposit enough for it to really be worth anything. I’m mostly after a TD as a sort of forced savings program I guess. Having to give 31 days notice to withdraw anything is more than long enough to curb any impulse purchases
No min deposit that I can see. Looks like 5.2% on 0-$50k.
https://www.australianunity.com.au/banking/savings-accounts/freedom-saverBut yeah, if you want the help with impulse control that’s a different issue and ~0.2% is well worth it.
Ah. I was looking at their term deposits, they do have a 5k min. I’d rather not be able to touch it. But thanks again for the suggestion!
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Handbag chook & potato salad please
Same for me please, with some pre-apocalypse shriracha too🤤
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I’ve brought work’s iPad away with me to try and get used to it. I kinda wish the OS they run on it wasn’t so basic but it has a nice screen and good speakers!
I tried connecting an smb to it, and that was fine, but it won’t play mkvs…
Plex with a plex pass is probably the best solution so you can download stuff for offline watch
I use VLC on it to play mkvs
I love VLC, I even pay the guy
I love how you can get 3D printed VLC logos on the side of the road.
First time since I moved in I don’t have to go tearing off anywhere and can really dig into sorting out the bags and boxes, and hopefully start unpacking the books and putting them on the shelves.
Naturally, I have bugger-all motivation.
