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  • Rai@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    32·
    3 days ago

    Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.

    Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.

    We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      5·
      3 days ago

      Thanks for giving your kitty as good a life as you could. Don’t let the end cloud your vision from the good times.

      If/when you’re ready, there are more lost souls to save out there. I wish I could have cats myself, but I am not stable enough to house them. Maybe some day I will foster, but even that is probably to much for me to handle.

      • Rai@lemmy.dbzer0.com
        2·
        3 days ago

        Thank you for your kind words. He lived an incredible life. Working is going to be a lot more lonely without him constantly bothering me to snuggle with me all day.

        When his brother died five years ago, he was so lonely… so we adopted two baby kittens so he could be their mum. He took to them immediately, cuddling and playing and loving them. I think that might have extended his life. They’re a little confused right now with him not moving, but we didn’t let him see his brother after he died, which I think was a mistake.

        About to go drive to his brother’s grave to bury him with his brother so they can snuggle eternally.

  • Lad@reddthat.com
    4·
    2 days ago

    On Tuesday I had a panic attack when I got in to work at 9am. It didn’t last long, only about 15-20 minutes, but I still don’t feel quite right even now. That’s usually the case with my panic attacks, it takes a while for me to reset afterwards. Sometimes weeks.

    Right now I have this tense feeling in my head, which causes my jaw to tighten up and get an impulsive twitch. Usually seems to happen when I’m feeling anxiety. I have an urge to chew on something soft.

  • flashgnash@lemm.ee
    6·
    3 days ago

    I currently feel like my nervous system is vibrating having just got out of the gym after preworkout

  • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
    17·
    3 days ago

    Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I’ve lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.

    Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      9·
      3 days ago

      I wish I could work out like I used to when I was unemployed. I know it would give me more energy, but there is nothing left at the end of the day to invest into me and my health.

      Whatever, who wants to live a long life anyways? Just more rent payments, more scammers, more assholes in my life.

    • Miss Millie@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      4·
      3 days ago

      Try to stay away from stress reasons for a while if possible , hope you get better soon

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      31·
      3 days ago

      Ever try psychedelics? I fully understand they aren’t for everyone, but it helped me get away from the autopilot feeling in life.

      Unfortunately, most days I wish I could go back to autopilot. Being aware and present can be a curse.

  • Coskii@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    2·
    2 days ago

    Bored. I’m out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking… Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.

    It’s sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It’s almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what’s left are only the most basic of human functions. It’s days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.

  • Tiefling IRL@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    71·
    3 days ago

    Since the last bout with COVID and subsequent bronchitis, I’m always exhausted and my lungs seem to hate me. It’s slowly improving by the day but that’s the worst bout of COVID I’ve had.

    Fully vaxxed, other than the recent one for obvious reason

      • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
        21·
        3 days ago

        The pain of life does not last forever. We all find peace. For a few, in this life. For the majority, in the next.

        Only 40 more years of my shift left on earth and I can know peace for the first and last time.

      • LucidBoi@lemmy.dbzer0.com
        11·
        2 days ago

        I failed college, which lead to me losing my job. I also lost my car. To top it all off, my girlfriend of 3 years left me while we were 10,000km away from home. Every single thing reminds me of her. I haven’t had the strength to shower in a week. I wish I had a car so i can drive into a concrete block at 200km/h and obliterate my worthless body. I love her so much.

        • FippleStone@aussie.zone
          2·
          2 days ago

          It does get better, and one day you’ll look back and be glad that it turned out the way it did, just keep going ❤️