I'm potentially going to nope the f out of my course.
I took my first lesson ever today and it was a fail. My mentor gave me a respectful class and so behaviour was awesome. It was my actual teaching. Everything was fucked. I also observed the class that was 50% ND. They all should’ve had an aide but lack of funding. My mentor said she is stumped and is only teaching people who want to learn for the most part. I also don’t know why I wanted to teach my learning areas because I know fuck all about them. I also don’t want to do the assignments, even though they are relatively scaffolded. I am ready to become even more of a piece of scum in society as I don’t have anything valuable to offer. I don’t think study is for me, but neither is anything hands-on because I have a freaking disorder that impedes me. Yay, learned helplessness. My mum doesn’t want me to drop out because she exclaimed how I really wanted to do it and also it was my first lesson, but clearly I was off with the fairies. It seems silly to give up so easily, but at some point, I’ve got to recognise that something isn’t for me / doesn’t suit my personality.
I really like working with young people and building relationships, but standing up in front of 25 kids everyday, four times a day, I really overestimated myself. I don’t know what I’m going to now, but I will figure something out.
Look, don’t blame yourself. Teaching is hard and I see teachers online talking about how the current crop of kids are more difficult to handle.
There are definitely other options for working with young people that isn’t like that
I feel terrible for giving up so easily, but until there’s some sort of radical change in the system, I don’t think I want to do it
Trust yourself, if you really don’t want to do it don’t waste time or further money on sunk cost fallacy.
Maybe there’s still time to withdraw and get some of the tuition back?
The date was two days ago, and they’re not very lenient. But I shall see.
I don’t have anything valuable to offer
This is not true. Teaching is not easy but the skills (and patience) you’ve learnt will cross over to anything and everything you decide to do.
That’s true :)
That last sentence is the key. You got this.
Thank you :)
Lots to unpack here for yourself. Don’t make any decisions until you’ve had a chance to breathe and mull over for a few days. It almost sounds like you got overwhelmed on the day, went into panic mode, felt like a failure and that the only solution was to quit immediately. Maybe teaching is your path and worth pursuing, or maybe it isn’t. The student behaviour issues are very real and lots of teachers struggle. But lots also feel it’s rewarding despite the challenges.Take some time, talk to people around you, see what you feel like after the adrenaline has settled. No one is perfect at something first time they do it.
I have never considered teaching, and nor have I ever wanted to. But, I will say, if you’re not feeling it anymore with your course, then don’t push yourself any more into doing it; you’ll resent it and your brain will use it against you. You already seem really burnt out by the course, and people can’t push through burn out without a break.
Drop out or defer (if you can), and take a mental health break, go for more walks (if you can), get in touch with your hobbies and interests, friends even or a club. Then, look through the list of gov funded/free TAFE courses and see if any pique your interest. If you like building relationships with and helping young people, you could look into youth services courses instead. But don’t get ahead of yourself, look after your present self.
Also,
Said by someone who tried to push through burn out in a call centre and ended up in the ER twice. Also a partner to someone who tried to do the same.
I am ready to become even more of a piece of scum in society as I don’t have anything valuable to offer.
Nope nah no way. This line of thought isn’t going to help you, I promise. You DO have something valuable to offer to society, because you are human; this particular job just doesn’t align with you in the way you thought and THAT’S OKAY!!! It is so okay, it is normal. You wouldn’t be a scum of society by getting on centrestink or anything, you just need a break to figure out what does align to your values!
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this Spud. I feel like maybe I was being a bit dramatic, and perhaps I should do more teaching to really figure it out.
But I have to have a long hard think when I’ve calmed down a bit more.
Thank you again. I really appreciate it 🥰
Also I met an animal technician the other day, and thought of you. I know you’d be awesome at it, if that’s the path you choose to go down.
(Also asked a pig to sit and it sat hehe)
That would be good, to wait until you’re calm and clear headed! No making decisions in a heightened state of emotion 💜💜
Aw!!! That’s so cool! Animal techs have such a rewarding and difficult job, lots of euths and recording animals that aren’t well, but it’s so very rewarding to advocate for their welfare!!
I LOVE pigs!!! Omg! They’re so smart! 🥹
Even people who have gotten their degree and have taught still can have horrible years.
Infact at work I’m seeing it live with a new teacher who has had a number of years under her belt already.
You are there to learn and experience these things and to learn from your mistakes, just because it didn’t work out the first time doesn’t meant it’s all doom and gloom.
Low, you are there to learn and get experience, of course you don’t know everything on the first day.
I suggest you listen to your mentor.
And don’t be so easily put off. You can do this.
I think I will continue until the end of the semester and see how I go :) I was pretty riled up before and I think that impacted things.
Awesome. 😊 I’m proud of you.
A friend of mine felt a bit the same, “why did I do this/what the hell have I done?” Until she got a job teaching English to adult students overseas. She just had to explore the options a bit more and find something that suited her. Maybe you’ve got to explore a bit more to find your “zone”?
Got annoyed today, someone constantly needing things from me, even when they can see I’m working out of my office about to do some other work.
My stupid first reaction and instinct is to stop what I’m doing and cater for someone else.
I need to stop myself from doing that and tell them to come back later and I’m busy because they’re too self centred to think and see that someone else is busy and only wants their thing done.
I’m the same, I go into doing the new thing mode
the thing is, i get told/implication , is that their thing is both urgent and important , so the feeling of urgency gets me every time.
anyone with an ounce of self awareness would never want you to drop what you are doing
I wonder if the habit of people expecting messages returned near instantly has bled into other aspects of life
soo I buy some specific parts from an Australian vendor. Yay local.
After 10 days of order confirmation and hearing nothing, I drop them a quick courteous “Heya this was paid in full on XX but I haven’t heard anything back, just wanting to check up on the order progress”
what I get back is a literal three page whinge about how they’re a small aussie business and working here and there and oh yeah the item had to be backordered that’s on them for not telling me it was in stock but they can’t run live inventory 24/7 they’re not amazon, they’re a small mum and dad aussie business and on and on and I shit you not I can paste the whole fuckin’ thing if you want it’s like they decided my email was their personal blog.
And I really really just wanna reply with jesus fucking christ dude but that’s not productive. Is there a polite way to say “All you had to say was it was on back order, and to be honest this whole screed has put me right the fuck off you as a business mate fuckin’ hell”? Do I want there to be a polite way of saying it. Should I just grab the goods and bail?
All you had to say was it was on back order, and to be honest this whole screed has put me right the fuck off you as a business mate fuckin’ hell I’d say almost exactly that. Except with the swearing. Or go with “I wasnt having a go, I was requesting an update which you failed to provide but your response says a lot about you as a business. Keep that in mind next time someone requests an update you haven’t provided. I do you the courtesy of sending this privately rather than a google review. Any response other than “thank you” and I’m happy to change that”. Drop that last sentence if you wanna be more passive.
This is probably the best wording to use imo, nice balance of “friendly local” but also “don’t mess with me” and “wtf dude chill”.
“Thank you for the reply. I request a refund within five working days.”
That is all. If they don’t do it then you post the three pages on google review. No need to warn them about it.
haha just PMd you it as requested
"Thank you for providing and update on the status of my order, and context surrounding the delay.
I appreciate that you are a small business, I bought this item from you not just for my own needs but to support small businesses. However, I do not appreciate having paid in full for an item, receiving no update on the status of said item, and when inquiring about such, receiving a passive aggressive three-page trauma dump of the struggles of running a small business.
I understand you are not Amazon, however if you wish to keep providing the services you do, and gaining and retaining customers, I reccomend proof-reading your responses prior to sending them.
Your response to my reasonable question regarding the status of my order, after almost 2 weeks since I paid, is unwarranted and does not speak well for your customer service skills."
Then either end with a request for refund/cancel the order, or wait for the order.
Val Kilmer died.
We knew it was coming, but all the same this is a sad thing.I liked his role in The Salton Sea.
So sad.
You’ll always be remembered Iceman.
Ah, I was out of the loop. Loved him in Top Secret, 11yo me thought it was the funniest thing ever. RIP man.
His deteriorating health was big news when the second Top Gun movie came out and we found out he couldn’t actually speak any more.
he was so young too 😔
NOOOO 😭😭😭
He played my favourite character in Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
Tbh I love him in everything he’s done!
Vale Val
Such an underrated film. Everyone in it is great.
I’m up. Just want to rest so my sciatica doesn’t become inflamed. I’ve been doing a lot of lifting and carrying so I have to be careful.
Health bit of a downer
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Just went over to p’s help them get ready for their little trip up to the murray.
Bit of a dark chat with mum when we were alone. She’s on a shitload of drops and drugs to prevent total blindness amongst other things. Said she’s sick of it doesn’t want to be here anymore. Just an hour before heading on a trip with her buds.
It’s a bit difficult to know how to go about that conversation.
She has the best care available but it’s pushing her to the limit.
Not after hugs, just saying (as I’m sure a few of us here already know), it can be a bit confronting even if you’re used to that conversation with others.
Sometimes all you can do is listen
thank you for reading.
Yeah that’s a really hard one. Not sure I have handled it well when faced with it myself. But listening is the best. It’s a natural feeling and being open to hearing it means that you can better judge how to help based on whether it’s a passing feeling, depression kicking in, or a genuine desire.
And then come here or to some other safe space and scream and kick and let out your own fears. You are doing good.
I’m so sorry. I’ve been in that place myself and sometimes all you can do is be there.
Accessibility options might help return a sense of control and help her take her mind off things but it’s really hard to be in that position and hopelessness does kick in.
Sometimes all you can do is listen
Yes, sometimes that’s all you can do. And it matters - matters a lot. She needed you to be there to hear her. It hurts to be there but keep listening. Feels.
Quick tech question… I’m looking to get a budget mesh setup (looking support budget at TP-Link Deco E4). I have HFC. Connection comes in to house, inputs into my HFC box…
Then outputs to my router which then creates the wifi.
I’m assuming you plug the output from the NBN box straight into the mesh system? Meaning no router…?the mesh system you’re talking about is a router / replaces your router. you’ll need to make sure you have the login/password from your ISP when setting up for the first time
Brilliant, thanks
One of the earliest set pumpkins is looking bigger and a few are yellowing… please hurry 🙏❄️💀
Realistically I know the cold is probably going to kill them and I might not get any ripe. The Jack Be Little are frost sensitive and the Golden Nuggets haven’t even started female flowers yet.
But I’m treating this as a practice run so I learn more about their needs and hopefully can be more prepared in Spring. Hopefully these at least develop enough to get some nice pics before they’re consigned to the compost.
This is the plumpkin from a few angles
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that looks great 🙂
Thanks. I hope next time I can get lots of fruit
Beep Beep 🚚
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Does anyone know of any cheap/very easy going places for dinner near the Alfred hospital on Commercial road?
I used to work around there, but a few years ago. If a tram ride or longer walk is an option then Banff on Fitzroy St is great- cheap and cheerful pizza and pasta.
There are cafes immediately around the Alfred but I’ve got no idea what’s there now.
When I was in there for a week ten years ago, I mostly went to a sushi place up the road a bit toward chapel St, northside of Commercial.
It’s mainly a “worker’s lunch” kinda vibe around there - I live very close. There’s a Nando’s very close to hospital, a hungry jacks also v close, or sushi. Otherwise you’re looking at a couple tram stops in any direction. Nar Bangkok is a few stops up st Kilda Rd - that would fit the bill. There’s also a good burger place next to it. Otherwise into Prahran
Going ‘shopping’ in the vacant offices downstairs. Have acquired several potential new chairs and a flash candy bowl.
nice
I have gone to the beach, visited Cranbourne Botanic Gardens and bought a car, and it’s still only 2pm!
The gardens were very nice, but it was getting a bit hot in the full sun. Now I need to sort out some photos.
So much info to absorb. Brain is mush.
Hell yeaaaah get dat pizza!
Wtf. You can now only buy two packs at a time of paracetamol and the max pack size at the supermarket is 16. I remembered hearing about that change and didn’t worry because I barely used it then but it’s come in right as I’ve started needing to use it regularly.
It’s bullshit anyway. You can just get around it by adding a few more boxes of a different brand or hitting up different shops. If someone wants to misuse it they will.
The problem is I get delivery around weekly to fortnightly and can’t really pop out just to get one thing. Under the new restrictions I could still get a 50 pack of Panamax from the pharmacy but that brand is really rough on my body for some reason.
All this has done is make life more difficult for disabled people.
Different brand tablets have different compositions. A good brand will have ingredients like buffers that help you digest and absorb the active ingredient.
So yes, brand names usually are better.
It was weird. I had taken two Panamax in the morning for cramps and then 4 hours later the pain was coming back so I took another two… then suddenly I developed a headache and serious nausea and was googling for any recent recalls because I knew for sure I hadn’t taken too many pills.
I’ve never had that happen before. And I used to use Panamax years ago. I use the 60 cent Coles brand now and have had no issues there :/ Haven’t noticed anything amiss with Hedanol either.
I could get linux on the new work laptop but it could make things like connecting to the VPN and printing a headache. I don’t print much but I need the VPN to do work on the website.
I’d like to cut M$ out of my life where I can but will it be worth it?
Are you sure it will be a headache? Linux printer drivers are up to date. VPN depends on the software used but most of the big names have Linux installers. I have to work within client systems and for the meeting at part can make it work.
I like this point! How bigger job is it really to reimage the device back to windows if it doesnt work?
Buy a mac? /s
